Life is always contradicting.... how do you know what you do, or what you decide will be the best for that person... people use to say when you really love a person, you should think for her, let her have the best... or maybe move on so that she can have the best instead of suffering with you... but is that really the truth... I dun know..

While walking home from Yio Chu Kang two days ago.. walked for 3.5 hrs..I thought of alot of things... thought abt her... and what is the best... the decision may hurt... or sound stupid to some people but maybe the best for her... at this stage of life... she dun need someone who is a burden to her...   the dilema of wanting to be with her... but yet.. wanted the best for her...

I still love and miss her... and I am not stubborn or proud not to make the 1st move to call her..  just that I am suppressing my emotions, I rather I suffer myself than to let two person suffer together.... life with out her...... EMPTY, the word which most suitable to describe now.... haven been sleeping for the past 48 hours... taken only two meals.. good way to slim down lolx... really hard to go thru this alone...

Maybe I will just sink.... sink... sink.... down the bottomless hole........"Ocean Deep" lolx ops.. that song had a very special meaning which only she know....  E muja oui pypo

2 months had passed... jobless again... time to look for a new job... maybe a job which is more suitable and flexible for me.... there are times when I look back and start thinking of what had happen... start wondring did I did the correct things....

Maybe at a different period of times, we tends to choose and want different things... sometimes we know that it may not be what we want... but we just bang into it....  its may not be the best... but we should always try to work it out... cuz no one know the future... :)

Hi all, had been busy at my work.. seems to be working all day long and neglect the people around me..... there are a few people I miss and been a long time since I heard from them..... hopefully they are doing well at the moment... as we grow up, we tend to lose a few friends along the way.... but I have never forget about them..... the times that we spend and helped each other thru the hard times..... I hope that we will cross our path again.........

I have set certain targets for this year and I m going to force myself to achieve it by hook or crook... dun wanna just sit around and live life as it is... not going to be contented easy as before... 'cuz it will just make me slack and sit back.... this is going to be the year where everything will change for me... if God wun change my destiny...why dun I change it myself?  

Think I am going thru this transition period of my life....  need to seriously plan and decide on a few things.... 'cuz every decision I make now will affect another important person in life...

Sunday, 09012005, is the happiest day I ever had in 2005 so far... simply becoz someone told me something ... will remember it.. thanxs dear...